Funny, but this date has a ring to it! Oh yea, THE BUDMAN NIGHT!!!!!Ah, the memories! (Sigh)
So, I talked to Christopher for a little bit yesterday afternoon. He called and wanted to know what time I was going to the game on the 18th so he could arrange a time before the game so we could hook up and say "Hi." After talking to him for a while, I knew it was over. He was plain adamant that there is no love there for me like it was. He said he just decided that we wasn't in love. Period. nothing I did or said really. Just the ticket situation, my relationship with Scott, just made him decide that he just didn't feel love for me anymore. Done. Over. Nothing. He said he was sorry for being so "cavalier" about it. So I told him that it was pretty much out of the question that I'd be friends with him. I am even having difficulty with the webiste at the moment.
I have finally been able to get made at him. I even got to say some of the things I needed to say to Christopher.
I cried a bit last night. Couldn't get to sleep. Drinking way too much lately.
Scott seems to be in a pissy mood. Or is it he just chafes and bristles, like I do, when someone edits his piece.
I've taken over editing on the website. Christopher handed it over to me. He wants to put a fucking disclaimer on the site re Scott's and my articles. "not Necessarily The Opinion Of LaPuck." If he does that, I'm blowing this whole thing off. I'll just throw out an article or two every now and then, blow of his board, silly polls and everything else. I have already put him on block on all my AOL names, except TATTRICK. So, he can't long on AOL and IM me.
I don't want to talk to, see, or thing about him. I am deeply hurt by his actions. All I know how to do is just remove myself from his life. And I am trying to do that. Eliminate all possible contact from him right now. I am so blown away he dumped me!!!
FUCK HIM AND THE WHEELCHAIR HE RODE IN ON.
Doing laundry this AM. Been trying to fool around AOL again. Nothing but bozos online as usual. Shit.
Tried to cyber with this guy last night. First he plays out (over the past week) that he is this internet virgin. Yeah, right. He was lame to begin with, using words like "yummy" to describe my porno email. HELP!!!
So, I went along last night - needing to FUCK anything even cyber - just to forget Christopher - and he played along for a while. Then, he starts going on and on and on and on (fuck, I wasn't even reading it, I was answering Scott's email) about what he was doing to me. I realized right then that he was no virgin. I just eventually stopped answering his IM's and today, I put him on block. Let the bozo get the hint.
Then there was the fucking dancing cowboy looking for, no, his words, a new dancer partner. I thought for a moment this could pan out, but he turned out to be very self-obsessed. Another name deleted. But not blocked.
I need a new romantic/sexual interest, and soon.
